Have you ever found out something that you wish you just didn't know? Is ignorance really bliss? I got confirmation of something that I kinda always known, but the confirmation has really screwed me up. When I kinda knew, it bothered me, but it was a bit easier to sweep under the rug. Now, that all the cards are on the table, I have been obsessed with a truth that I once so cheerfully ignored. Sigh!
So now, a part of me wishes I never proposed the question that got me the answer that I really didn't want to hear. If I would have never asked, I would have never been told, then things would have gone on the way they were. It wasn't necessarily a lie, it was more-so, something that was there but not talked about (btw, omission is a lie).
On the other hand, once you accept something as being real or an issue you can move on from it. While the moving on process may send you into the lowest of valleys, it's also the journey to getting to the next hill. Sometimes the truth is just hard to hear, then hard to process, then hard to accept, then hard to get past, then hard to not think about every time you think about that person. Ugh! I've been doing way too much over-analyzing, but I'm a pretty intense thinker (I like to say philosophical).
Basically, I've been tripping. Granted, when your heart is in something, whether its a friendship, relationship, job, etc...when things happen that aren't consistent with your desires, it's difficult to not feel some kind of way about it, but "Frankie Says Relax."
Sometimes the things you don't want to know are the things you need to know. It's all good. It's not the end of the world because things take a different turn, just go with the flow.
Still, a part of me wishes I just never asked the question. Not because I would have stayed in the dark, but I'm wasting so much energy analyzing it :/
who's Frankie? lol
ReplyDeleteIn the 80s "Frankie Says Relax" was a phrase that was put on all these t-shirts. It came from a song
ReplyDeleteIt is so hard to grasp the fact that the reality is so different than the expectation. Sometimes you expect things to the point where you convince yourself that's real, and when real life happens, it's a jolt. It shakes everything up. One thing for sure, you can't grow in your life if you can't accept things for what they really are. That's why it's always better to know, even if it hurt. Knowing the actual reality eventually leads to accepting it and then growing and moving past it.
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